beat!

her<3

• 29march07 marks our 8th mth of relationship. we might not be spending most of th time together. i treasure every single moment each time we met. and even if th love isnt that strong, even if its fading, i still keep you close to me. Because i today i love you more than yesterday but much less than tomorrow.

him<3

• 8 months together means a lifetime together.
  we may quarrel, disagree yet we stood by together.
  Th rest, they come and go. but you&i, we remain close like bow&arrow.
  On this month i promise to you that i wont go until you say its over.
  be it badtimes or goodtimes, lets stood by each other till forever.
  

its th 2nd week of training at M1. Training was as per normal today. yet its getting harder for me to absorb in anymore information. i feel so lost. i need a super long break and rest. im getting weaker each day. migraine's hitting me. my eyes are tired. i keep sneezing & beginning to lose my voice. what is happening to me. God knows. gta stay back again for th re-assesment tmr. Yes! i failed th 2nd assesment again. what to do? i did all i can yet i still failed th assesment. oh well, working is rather stressful when its in th office yet again working is fun, when its outdoor and you get to do whatever you want to do. im serious. it wont be long, i believe i'll be back to where im suppose to be. *prays hard* i am still 17 (okay, 18 this year) im still schooling, i wna be filled with activities, i still wna have fun, i still wna go for netball trainings, i wna have fun and of course there are times where i wna slack. i couldnt possibly be tied down to something that seems so permanent. im sorry if i were to dissapoint you. but this is not how i want my life to be.
i really hate it when mom starts comparing me n sis. we are not th same. i repeat. we are NOT th same. we're 10 years different. why compare? how can you expect us to be th same? sis prefer indoor, i love outdoor. sis learns things fast but i take things slow. super slow at times. sis isnt as active as me. sis could just sit in th office doing her things, i need to run around and things like that. i'd rather be running around th field than sitting in th office. staring at th computer th whole day gives me headaches. gruhh! i dont have any choices, do i?

Dear Allah, please give me th strenghts to overcome all Your challenges. Things are much settled now at home, i've still got to settle for school, please lead me through. Amin.

Loves,
`IN!