i know i shouldnt have done it
i didnt want to answer you.
never did i want to. NEVER.
but i just did it because i cant take it anymore.
i am extremely sure that this is the FIRST time i answered you back in my whole 18years of life.

i have been ignoring it all this while.
i swallowed it down painfully, each time this happens.
i had my silent tears in the middle of the night. noone knows.
& even now. it just cant stop no matter how hard i tried to.
i've pent it up soo much that i errupted.
(maybe not. maybe the time of the month is so near that i cant control myself)


how will i ever grow up if you dont slowly let go of me.
reality check: i am eighteen now. eighteen. one-eight.
when will you understand that the world is changing now?
its unlike your generation.

we just cant get along no matter how hard i tried.
im sorry for not being as perfect as you are
im sorry for not being like you
im sorry for being not good
im sorry for being th worst
im sorry if i was ever a burden
im sorry i've hurt you, many times in fact.
im sorry for always being th one who gives you trouble since i was a little girl
im sorry for giving you such a hard life
im sorry for giving you such nightmare
we may never seem to get along
but i still love you.
&imissdaddy
:'(

xoxo
-I.N-