in-wondergirl!

well, i think finally i still will have to write about this. (readers dont hesitate to talk about me or hate me after reading up this post.) i have so many things going through my mind, i dont know where to begin.
BUT.. one thing for sure, I really hate this matter. i repeat, i HATE it.
(Dear Allah, i know you're listening. Could you tell me whats going on?) Each time i think about it, i get mentally and emotionally weak. :( im all mentally messed up, i dont know which is fact which is fiction. im confused. who's denying? who's making stories? who's serious? who is who? everything, even who am i to you?
Enough of the silent tears every single night thinking about this matter. it scares me, yes i get very insecure. thats because i really love you and i dont want to lose you.

i believed you when you say,
you loved me and noone else.

i believed you when you say,
you want me us and ours.

i believed you when you say,
its just the beginning of us.

i believed you when you say,
she's just a little girl who is very stubborn,

and that i have to bear in mind that
you love me and noone else.

i believed you when you say,
she dont know what love is.

i believed you when you say,
she's just being childish.

i believed you when you tell me
you really loved me and noone else.

i believed you when we talked about
our dreams and future.

and i believe you when you say,
you treat her nothing more than just a friend.

i believed you when you say,
you did not give her any hope.

I BELIEVED YOU

that (and more) made me believe that Im a strong woman and im not tired of loving you.
in fact im loving you more each moment.
im not leaving, im not letting go, im not giving up.
If loving you was wrong, i dont want to be right.

Dear Allah, please give me your strength to help me through this odds.Amin.

i want to rest now.
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